Hello, From Dabido
An update from the (not) famous streamer Dabido and his first ever blog on Substack
It's been a while since I've properly talked to any of you since I quit in April. I know this might come as a surprise considering that I said I was returning back to my personal life and cutting all interaction from my hobby as a YouTuber. I just wanted to give a few updates since some of you guys might still want a little bit of a slice of my life. Here's what happened over the past 4 weeks after quitting with a Q&A format because why not? (the questions were all assumptions based on what you guys might think of)
Q: Are you ever returning?
I'm still uncomfortable on the topic of returning to YouTube, although when the time comes, I might return as regular me or for special purposes. I was just going through a really confusing and tough time during my return stream and I thought that being hot and cold as a streamer with irregular schedules put a lot of pressure on me when it comes to returning or not. It's also really confusing for you guys, soo...
Q: What happens to the PNGTuber?
Honestly, I still feel bad for commissioning the original artist (free of charge by the way, since she's my friend and she did it for me out of her own free will) and using it for only one stream, so I did deeply apologise for it. I might still use it if I ever come back or use it for something else that isn't YouTube.
Q: Did you enjoy streaming on YouTube overall?
I think that my mental wellbeing was really low (not to the point where I could be diagnosed with a mental illness, just really unwell) and the reasons why I started streaming was just to substitute for those feelings and use it as an act of escapism. Even though those were the reasons, I genuinely enjoyed streaming even if I had some bad days and some really awkward days. I hope to be able to stream again when I'm ready so I can share that experience once more.
Q: Are you pursuing any hobbies now?
YouTube and gaming was basically my only hobbies back then, and I think I've been able to focus on my other hobbies now such as music, songwriting, narrative writing, reading, and socialising with friends.
Q: What have you been doing since you quit?
I've been able to interact with my friends and family more often, and I have been focusing on school mostly. I've lost the burning passion I had for gaming but I still don't mind playing a casual game or two. I'm more so a sociable person, and I've been able to reveal my true personality as a more sociable and outgoing person. As of recently, I've been able to more frequently work on the band I joined a couple of months ago (back in December) but I won't reveal anything yet. That's all basically, not much has happened.
I don't really have much to explain or talk about, since it's only been four weeks and most of the work I do is confidential since it's school work. I've been able to live experiences that I wouldn't have been able to before since I had YouTube occupying most of my week. I'm not sure if I'll ever come back, but I'll keep writing updates and such here so I can give you guys some type of closure other than the goodbye video. Thank you guys for everything, and I hope to see you guys around.
o7, Dabido